I want to the government shutdown to end as much as anyone. But probably not for the reasons you might think. I am sick of the facebook judgements that have come along with it. I have (what I think) is a unique experience. I have a master's degree in Social Work. I studied poverty, social justice, social programs, child welfare. I worked in a Children's home and a Medicaid contract program. Now (at least according to the federal guidelines), I live on the poverty line. My family chose this so my husband could go to graduate school. But while I understood the mathematical costs, and I was am trusting that we are following God's will, it's still hard. I didn't know there would be an emotional cost. They can't teach you that in graduate school (they do try, but you can't fully understand something you have never experienced). Over the last year my family has been on most of the major social welfare programs: Medicaid, food stamps, WIC (we work